money, money, money (must be funny)

last night lars and i decided that we would start sharing a bank account. we've been together over three years and have lived together for two. i really resisted the idea of sharing finances at first...i'm greedy, i'm a selfish...but, there was some altruistic reasoning behind my fear. see, i am the proud owner of a horribly financed student loan. i was locked in years ago at an 8.9% interest rate with Sallie Mae or as i like to call them, "she who shall not be named." by the time i pay off my 20 grand STUDENT loan, i will have paid these bitches over 80 thousand dollars. it makes me sick to my stomach to think about. i even wrote Oprah a letter about it once. yes...i'm pathetic people. anyway, so i have this huge monthly payment that he had nothing to do with and i feel guilty that he would have to share this annoying burden with me. we talked it out and he swears he's fine with it. (let's just get it out of the way that lars is a much better person than i am)
so, yes there's nothing like making a budget to remind you how much money you don't make. i'm feeling smothered by it in fact. good thing i have this really inexpensive habit of kni... oh yeah.
damn!
there's also the issue of my trying to go back to school. you see, i want to be a librarian. (yes, i really desire to have even higher, more ridiculous loan payments) i currently work as a "Sr. Library Specialist" in Acquisitions at an academic library. i am "staff." for those of you outside of the library universe, let me explain...this means i do a lot of work and don't make a lot of money and also "get no respect." ("big ups" to rodney!)
i'm feeling the funk of the lower/middle classes dudes...and it's funking me right in the butt.
as knitting goes...i knit a WHOLE ROUND last night after crying about money and consoling myself with a big bowl of moose tracks ice cream. the cranberry hat is shaping up nicely....does anyone want to buy it for 30 grand??